This year I have become more lunar. The sun rays stroke my cheeks at noon, I lick my warm my lips and recognize myself a child of this gold.
I feel the penetrating presence of a radiant father,
blood circulates to warm by body, the touch of my lover, I exhale an orgasmic sigh.
I allow myself.
La Luna has reminded of the tides within me, she rises at the oceans horizon, colors swirl the dance of those who birthed, those who birthed, me,
– La Luna has witnessed it all and her consciousness grows, we.
I know how to bleed, I know why I bleed, I am mother and seed, I feed all that need, nourishment.
This year I have learned to give what is meant, to climb up the steep slope, muscles do ache, to reach the edge of the headwater, that breaks into stream,
a water fall sings, all that is dreamt, I am flying as I swim. I relax.
My belly knows the way the earth breathes, my spine elongates, high, like the tops of trees,
Free is when I breathe deep, clean weep, medicine steeps.
& the train cart rattles, over the bridge as I learn to be multiple, in worlds,
Dimensional yells, of all that wants to be heard but can hardly be felt.
I swallow the light and usher out night,
This year has been a harvest of wild honey from the void & the heights.
Last August I left NYC after calling it home for eight years. I closed cycles, gave thanks, cleared debts, and flew to LA to meet Juan Gabriel, a pampamisayuq of the Q’ero Nation and his daughter-in-law, Carolina. We would begin a two-month journey of supporting Juan as he shared his wisdom and teachings at international ceremonies, gathering and conferences. The three of us sharing a big tent we visited medicine folks in California, Arizona, New Mexico, Colorado, Oregon and Utah. A year prior, I had received the transmission that I am here, incarnate, for the regeneration of the generations. Here to reimagine and regenerate family, and so I was holding a prayer to connect more deeply with my native territory in Colombia and its wisdom keepers, to nourish and deepen my womb healing, and I was calling in conscious partnership. My ancestors started guiding me in ways I hadn’t experienced before. They were moving and speaking through me. This opened portals that led me to be in divine timing, meeting Kogi, Muisca, and Yanacona elders of Colombia, and birth workers and womb healers…and as the moon aligned with the sun for a total solar eclipse on August 21, I found myself in the woods of Oregon at a gathering of elders & 40,000 people, being held by David Ali, my now partner, feeling the surge of life force elevate us into a timeless space.
Since then I have been with Kogi, Muisca, Matsigenka, Q’ero and Shipibo family, coming together to celebrate, to heal, and to co-create solutions and alternatives to socio-economic, ecological and spiritual issues present.
I have been almost entirely surviving off trades, and work exchange as I move about, somewhat free from the “system”. I have been caring for myself in a whole new way, tuning in to the wisdom of the moon and the way her cycles reflect in my body and through my womb. After many months of traveling I am now finally settled in a new desert land, creating home, family and entering the world of formal midwifery studies. I am currently supporting my mother-in-law Dr. Adela Felix who is an MD and has a clinic on both sides of the US/ Mexico border, serving those without access to healthcare. I see that by formalizing my call to accompany, a most supreme of creation ceremonies, the ceremony of giving light, I can serve any community or territory I am ever invited into. To Herban Cura I now bring the potential to expand into different territories, integrating different plant medicines for our healing products, as well as streaming the wisdom of the territory I am now in and its elders’ messages. I am also soon to start offering Womb Weaving and Sacred Blood creative services online based on my personal experience and evolving relationship with Kogi & Muisca sexual/creative cosmovision and Tao Tantric Art principles. I feel infinitely grateful to see the way in which the universe conspires to support you once you surrender to your highest calling, it may not look like or be where you ever imagined yourself, but I find it most enriching when I give myself to the mystery.